I don't know how to deal with this. My psychiatrist says tha

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I don't know how to deal with this. I was in a bit of a tricky situation, as the way I have been given herpes is from sexual assault from a guy that I didn't even know, who obviously as well as being a complete and utter monster, was oblivious to how much he was about to ruin my life when he assaulted me. My psychiatrist says that it gets a lot easier to deal with over time, kind of like dealing with a health condition like eczema, but it has effected me so much, I don't think I ever will get over it. It's like a constant painful reminder of what happened to me, only 16 at the time. I worked up the courage to tell my mum a week later (although I didn't tell her that I was raped) that I was experiencing worrying symptoms so she took me to a hospital. I was tested positive for herpes simplex 2, although the doctor didn't explain properly at all, I was in floods of tears and he told me that it would go away - me thinking that that meant permanently like chlamydia. Then 6months later, I started experiencing lots of pain down there and I told my mum. I was crying for weeks as I didn't know what it was or what to do and couldn't find a time to go to the clinic. I went to a clinic 2 weeks after my first OB since the incident and was tested for everything - turns out I officially have herpes simplex 2. I'm only 17, 18 in October, and I can't trust anyone with this information and I don't know if I'll ever be able to have a relationship again? I've contemplated suicide many times since I found out - It's very hard for me as I have depression and anxiety on top of herpes and I've always felt ugly and worthless. Now I just feel like I belong in a bin and a lot of the time do not want to go on as I don't see there being any hope for me in the future.

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18 hours ago

@lisajd So you're saying to just say it and not think about their reaction - to just go with it ?

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18 hours ago

@GMIX112 That's great to hear that you look at things in a much better way after nearly a year, maybe this will get better. I will of course :) Thanks so much. Yeah that would be fine

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18 hours ago

@mak1234 Exactly, that is exactly how I feel...

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