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Somebody please help me. My boyfriend just called and broke

Somebody please help me. My boyfriend just called and broke up with me. I had a bad episode on Saturday where I tried/threatened to kill myself and it got really out of hand. He barely talked to me since and he just called to break up with me and tell me he can't even be my friend or talk to me anymore because it's unhealthy for him. I begged for one more chance. I've apologized a thousand times for Saturday and told him I was working on it. There is nothing I can do. I have no friends and he is all I had. I am completely alone now and I feel like I'm dying I'm in so much pain. Please please help.

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May 17

Estella55 I am so sorry you are hurting right now and feel alone! You are not alone! We all make mistakes and it's ok for others to practice healthy boundaries for themselves. Life can be so full of dichotomies. When I was going through a season of emotional uproar I would plead and beg not to be rejected or abandoned (my deep inner cry) that I was working on it and please give me a chance. Isn't this what we all want? I remember my boyfriend then told me "don't tell me show me." That was so hard because change takes time. It took a 4 year separation for us to try again.
I don't know your path and if this man is the one for you. It takes great strength to handle relationships with people with mental illness. And, it takes great strength to risk your heart when we're already vulnerable in a storm where it's hard to grasp a grounding. I loved the quote "If you love something/someone, set it free. If it is yours, it will return. If not, it was never meant to be." This helped me to see beyond fears, loneliness or rejection that there's a purpose and a hope beyond my experience and what I see right now. This phase of your life will pass and you'll be able to look back at the ashes and see beauty and strength. Big hugs! Hang in there! Do what you need to grow but also love yourself! Surround yourself in beautiful music, flowers, scenery, maybe some relaxing soaks in an Epsom bath with lavender essential oil, join a class, take some walks in nature and feel good when endorphins run through your body (over time). Do something every day to say "I love you" to you! Perhaps some deep breathing or meditation exercises? Big hugs! You're worth love, life and happiness! Don't give up!

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May 18

Thank you. Your post brought me to tears (not so hard these days heh) but in a hopeful way. I understand completely why he broke up with me and how our relationship was unhealthy for him and understand why he can't be around me, so I haven't contacted him. I see him out with his friends on facebook which is very hard because his friend group that he's had for 10+ years became mine a couple years ago. I don't really have a support system here anymore. I'm just so devastated that I ruined everything after trying so hard not to. The only positive thing is that I got a call that I was accepted to an inpatient program and is supposed to be pretty good and does DBT. I will be in another state in a completely new environment which might help. I am pretty terrified of the intense all day therapy and group therapy which will be completely new for me.

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May 18

Estella55 I'm so excited for your new adventure. I know right now it's really scary feeling and not sure, feeling alone. DBT is excellent! I loved it! It works with skill building rather than drudging up pain over and over. Not only do you learn skills on how to work with anxiety but what to do in episodes. Can you stop following your bf and his friends for a time? I am sorry your inner circle was his and now you're left starting over. Perhaps getting away for awhile will be the most positive healing experience where you can meet some new friends? I'm here excited and hopeful for your next opportunity.
It's not always easy to deal with the emotions when doors appear to close. It's sometimes hard to see the opportunities that open when one does close. Whether you go through this program and return to rekindle your relationship with your bf or you find a fresh start where you realize you are worth something different...I'm confident life will bring exactly what you need.
I've been through some really rock bottom places in life, abusive relationships, abandonment and rejection yet somehow I can look back and see how many things have made me an overcomer. You have that same fight and spirit in you!
If your bf and his friends, that grew to be your friends, can't see past an episode and stand by you as you get treatment than truly they weren't good for you anyways. You deserve to be loved, cherished and have faithful people stand by you. You deserve a community of people that love you unconditionally and walk with you through therapy. Big hugs! You are not alone!!!

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